I mentioned previously that I taught an Instagram live yoga class yesterday morning. And that I involuntarily cried. 😥 Like, pull it together, Jamie. It’s not like their account has 74,000 people on it or anything. 🙄
It was right near the beginning of class. In the moment, I was encouraging the yogis to ground themselves before starting our practice. I said something about letting go of what was happening around us and how strange our world is right now. And I just started crying. I tried to breathe through it but for a moment there, I just couldn’t control it. I was a little concerned about the class I was about to teach. But I took deep breaths and I told those live viewers about how I was feeling. I was honest and vulnerable and I think that’s something this world has been missing lately while we all fake being fine.
This sucks. 💔
I miss people. I miss hugging my nieces. I crave human interaction. I hate this uncertainty and isolation. I understand why we are doing all this and I agree with it- stay home and keep your germs to yourself. But that doesn’t mean I like it or I’m ok with it.
I think a lot of us adults are putting on brave faces for the people around us. Work from home? No prob! Homeschool your kids? Easy peasy! Laid off? Don’t worry, it’s temporary! We are acting as if we are totally adaptable and that we’ll just roll with the punches. But we’re not. We’re just pushing our emotions down and at some point, they’re going to come out. For me, it was during a live streamed yoga class.
If I can encourage you in any way, I would say this. Feel your feelings. Acknowledge your emotions. It’s ok to cry or scream or stomp your feet. Find a moment where you can allow yourself to experience the sadness or grief or anger coming with this isolation and uncertainty, but then let it go. Don’t dwell in the negativity. Don’t let it take over your days. Find something positive to remind you of the better days. Reach out to a friend (virtually). Watch a happy movie. Do some yoga or other movement to get your blood flowing.
If you are in a really dark place, please reach out to someone. It can be me (send me a DM on social media or an email here) or it can be a friend or it can be a professional. A lot of therapists and crisis centres are offering virtual appointments for free or reduced rates. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and while all seems dark right now, this won’t last forever. We will get through this and in the end we will be stronger.💕